Decisions

so much to think about

I am in this weird place in my life where I feel like I’ve been working for something for so long annd I am actually starting to get there. Scratching at the surface. Feeling like it’s a place I should have reached it long ago.

It finally feels like it is all coming together. After so many years of work.

Opportunities are coming up that I’ve waited years for. I feel more than ready for them.

I got offered a dream job working for the freaking EPA. They didn’t just offer me a position but they really wanted me. It felt like they saw value in me that I wasn’t fully aware of. This position was with their environmental justice department. Despite the fact that my work experience wasn’t as applicable (in general terms yes some environmental science) but they really valued and placed more of a focus on my volunteer experience. The work I did because I liked and not just for work.

It does come with some instability. It would require a move to Boston and taking a pay cut to live in a more expensive city. There is room to grow, so if I can just make it through a little tough period, it should get better.

Leave family behind, not see my nieces and nephew grow up, and try to completely start my life over in a new place so far away from everyone I know.

Or I can stay. Try to move up in the place where I work now and try really hard to make a difference in my own community. Enjoy the stability I haven’t experienced for most of my life a little longer.

It feels like it all comes at once.

The only option I’m not taking is staying still. I plan on moving forward.

Now, the hard part is deciding which direction I want to follow.